the journey begins – feeling excared

Today’s the day – backpack packed to the max, I’m heading to the airport to catch a flight to Mexico. And if all goes to plan, I won’t be back home until at least Christmas. When people hear about my plans to take off and travel, most have been amazed. Everyone is supportive saying that this is such a cool thing to do, they’re jealous, BUT they would’ve been too scared to do it themselves. “You’re so brave for doing this” everyone says..

Honestly, what makes you think I’m not scared?.. I’m super scared. What if I end up hating traveling for more than a few weeks? What if I miss having my apartment? Not having a place to call my own home is not very comforting to be honest.. What if I’ll just be lonely and homesick the entire time? What if I spend all my money and end up broke with no future in two months?.. There are so many “what ifs” that scare me, but I’m doing it. I guess, maybe that’s what being brave means: Being afraid and doing it anyways? Or is that called reckless 😉 I think it’s a fine line..

Either way, I’m doing it anyways. Because I’m also very much excited for it! Excited to see new places, excited to try new foods, excited to work on my terrible Spanish, excited to reunite with old friends along the way and excited to meet new people and get inspired by others’ journeys. Excited to learn more about the local culture, excited to learn more about myself, excited to see where this journey will take me.

All these things to look forward to make all the worries and anxiety worth it. Yes it’s scary but also super exciting. Feeling excared – and can’t wait to take you guys along with me one this journey!